22nd
Truth. i’ve just finally broke my old routine. i was stuck in that shit for SOOO long.
I’ve been on both sides of the fence when it comes to breaking up; I’ve done the heart breaking and I’ve had my heart broken… countless times. Breaking up is never an easy thing to do, whether it’s your idea to end things or not. I recently broke up with my girlfriend Christina, who I’ve been dating since June (roughly).
Being with someone for a few months is not a long time. However a few months is enough time to create a routine of some sort. Some don’t like to claim that they have a “routine” with their girlfriend/boyfriend, but let’s be real here… we get into this comfort zone that I consider a routine.
For example, a quick routine that I seem find myself in while in a relationship: Whoever wakes up first will send a (cliche) “good morning” text. During the course of the day you ask how each others day is going (their issues become your issues and vice versa). Whoever is going to sleep first will send a (cliche) “good night” text.
Bam, you have a routine.
Obviously if you see your boyfriend/girlfriend that particular day it will be different, you’ll do the “in person” routine; whether it involves having sex, watching a movie, etc.
Here comes the point… you break up and suddenly that routine is no longer; just like that. You get this really uncomfortable feeling (even if you’re the one who did the breaking up). You almost don’t know what to do with yourself… so you surround yourself with friends to ease the loneliness.
The thing is, you obviously do know how to live without them. After all, there are days spent without them where you’re just fine. It’s the routine that’s missing… knowing someone is there.
Breaking up is really tough until you create a new routine… it’s like quitting smoking (which I’ve yet to do). I’m in the in between stage right now. I haven’t started my new routine, but I’m working on it. I’m currently writing this alone; without any friends around, which means I’m starting to not feel so lonely when I’m not surrounded by friends. Forward progress…
I originally created a private blog to post this in, but honestly, what do I have to hide? Fuck it, get in my business.
